I sit and wonder surely there is more to life. Surely my creator has much more in store for me. What is my purpose. Why am I here. Is it just to be a fashion Merch, to be a wife, a sister, daughter, niece, grandchild or cousin? I sometimes get so frustrated and despise the feeling of stagnancy.
Serving God is the best decision I’ve ever made, but now that I’ve made this decision what is to come next? I wouldn’t have it any over way. Serving God.
However, as a Christian you often wonder how does he see me , what are his plans for my life. Sometimes you feel stagnant in your relationship with God and want more, a higher level.
Higher level of worship, a higher level of relationship. All I’ve ever wanted is to be close to God and to see him how my mother sees him. I’ve now experienced his wonders. His love. His kindness and moreover his favor and amazing grace.
When I look back and think of the times that I could have been mentally out of my mind, due to heartache or poor decisions. Could have drifted so far from grace due to selfish acts, but yet, he still loves me and holds me in his arms.
Why? I often ask. Why love someone who continued to hide in shame and not seek forgiveness. Someone who lied. This love, this wonderful grace, after years of backsliding, is still here with me. He loves me continuously even though I pushed and pushed him away many times. How can I not love him back. My soul can only say yes. Yes lord yes.
He’s my best friend, my father, counsellor, anger management!. He’s all and more of those things to me.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I do have a purpose in this world, I may not know what it may be, however I know in my heart that I can trust God 100% and whatever path he leads me down will be the best path for me to walk. He has never failed me yet and never will. Trust and believe in him.
I love you lord. Thank you for being my best friend!
You made something out of nothing