For as long as I can remember I associated my self-worth with the approval of others. The feeling of being misunderstood caused frustration and anger.
I would search for the sound of laughter at my, “not so me” jokes and seek the green light from self-steered conversations, that I wasn’t particularly interested in. Why? One may ask.
I felt I had to change in order to be liked, because the feeling of being judged was unsettling. I craved the assurance of being understood and I never understood why people would choose to not to like me before I even uttered the word, ” Hello”.
I soon came to realise that no matter how much I tried to convince a person of who I am, no amount of convincing was worth my self respect and energy.
We sometimes put ourselves in a constant battle of trying to convince others that we are different, we’re not who they think we are. But during that time, are you really, truly being yourself. Or are you becoming who you think that individual will like?
Overtime I’ve realised that not everyone is going to like me, as long as I love myself and God loves me that’s all that matters.
Remember we are made in the image of our Heavenly Father, why change an already, perfect piece of art.